~Silenced By a Narcissist~
Wondering why you don’t feel like yourself. Why you feel helpless?
The narcissistic relationship means they take over another person like a parasite.
That individual feels silenced as there is no fair or equal communication. There’s no working it through, no listening, no sharing your point of view.
When none of that is received, your personal pathways are all shut down.
Over time you shut down. You have to. To protect yourself. Now, it is normal to stay silent. Forget who you are. Unable to trust your character. Not having any confidence in yourself.
Anxiety rules your mind. Ruminating thoughts feel relentless. It’s impossible to shift your mind and feel hopeful. The only time you may feel good, is when the narcissist has a good day, and you walk on eggshells waiting for the blow up which will come on their terms.
However, this is unacceptable. It is a false narrative. You have been conditioned to believe it is your job to stay silent, so they can continue to control, for their own agenda.
The problem with shutting down is that all the garbage stays in your body and has nowhere to go.
You can equate it to a dam with a filter or a grate on it.
To keep out the debris, to keep the garbage from being released. The toxic trash gets backed up. When we do not express ourselves, all the leftovers make us sick, physically and psychologically ill.
Pretending that everything is okay by claiming that ‘it isn’t too bad’ and ‘it doesn’t happen that often’ is a disservice to your body, soul mind and psyche. Things will get worse for you.
Feeling exhausted, nervous, sad, overwhelmed, trouble sleeping, and having brain fog. Possibly autoimmune symptoms in your gut, joints, skin.
You keep believing what the toxic narcissist says. Your body is forced to try to process emotions you keep suppressing. It is absorbing daily the messages it is receiving.
Continuing to deny leads to being trapped and helpless.
You have not done anything wrong or failed in life but it’s time to make a shift. Even if it feels daunting.
You don’t have to give up and accept the status quo.
The narrative is yours to rewrite, the tapestry to weave, as you embark on a voyage into the territory of your potential. It has not left you. It’s not impossible to find your way back
Congratulations on taking the first step today to build awareness that change is there for you. Denial does not serve you. It never did.